Such Unpredictable Somethings

Just a thought...

2006-02-22T20:54:19Z

Some people think they are so much better than other people just because they are older, or because people dont do things the way they do, or because they SEEM to have everything they want but they are too busy convincing themselves that everyone else is lower and less intelligent than he that he dosent ever think about himself from any other kind of perspective. They see things the way they want to because they are confortable thinking they are better, and that things should be done their way. They are right and everyone else is wrong....except of course those kind of people who are willing and easily pushed over by a ''powerful'' person. And you daren't think what might happen if that person stopped ignoring the fact that this ''powerful person'' is taking advantage and pretty much brainwashing the weaker person. where would your power go, who would you have power over if it weren't for the weaker people. I'm not weak, but i'll consider those who are. I'm not stupid, but at least i have the balls to consider it. Thats inteligence worth bragging about, to be able to see from different eyes, and understand it, to have the courage to confront yourself. You don't know a thing over me.

let forever be

2006-02-01T18:44:50Z

I'm really bored.I'm working in two hours at the Imps, but i mean generally i'm pretty bored. I am part of a pretty potentially good band with Stuart from the Garth and a couple of other guys. We mesh pretty well together and i like our practise. i still have a couple of jobs but nothing to get up for in the morning.

Gordons got a new girlfriend, something of which occoured after circumstances i couldnt control, which is a little annoying because he was the interesting thing going on and now i'm accidently on the rebound : /
But, thankfully i have an escape. I'm moving to Greece. Helensburgh really does get me right down.

Imps

2006-01-24T20:23:38Z

Does anyone remember me?

I'm sorry i've been such a waster these last few months. i swear im leaving soon. i'm not even home for 6 months and i get messed about by some guy. I shake my head at this moment.
Anyway iv many plentyful jobs such as barwork, football games, etc. but im leaving in March, i dont even care where i go at this point i dont even want to come back, but i say that all the time.

I'm really into the libertines at the moment, and i thought babyshambles wouldnt quite be as good, i was wrong, they are pretty good. Its like the whole death cab postal service thing.

Anyway. Gav, if you read this, i miss you, where have you been? That goes out to philip aswell but im not sure if he still has livejournal...i have to go to work now.

Loving it.

deatils of a weird weekend.

2005-11-14T17:10:37Z

What a weird weekend.
Went out in Helensburgh on Thursday, was quite good, i spotted me some Helensburgh eye-candy, which dosen't happen very often. ended up in BJ's, the club, for the first time technically.
Then Friday i stayed at home and had some quality Claire time. That day wasn't all that weird.
Saturday was. I went out with Phil-hip in Glasgow. We started off at the Barfly where we saw a band from America that sounded like the Fall, and we also saw Kobai, which was a nice bonus. I was sober and so i didn't make a dick out of myself for once. We went to a couple of shit clubs and then after some kind of wierd twist i ended up at a party by myself with some random boring folk, then i crashed on pip's misleadingly small couch. Got up at seven to travel home for work after probably about an hours sleep. Had red bull and survived work. Got home and fell asleep watching the Simpson's.
By this time it's Sunday. Becka called, my brothers woman, went round to hers to talk about her current situation with my brother, ended up going out and getting wasted. in BJ's again, eye-candy guy was there, he was drunk and pulled a girl that looked like a man. Gutted. It's not over yet. I'll get some balls to go talk to him next time.
Pub quiz night tonight. And i'm back on the road as of today.

le_bench @ 2005-10-22T10:24:00

2005-10-22T17:24:27Z

Happy Birthday to me...

22nd October.

2005-10-16T15:58:46Z

I'm going to be 18 on Saturday!!
I'm going to be drunk all over Scotland all weekend.
Feel free to join me.

Moan moan etc etc

2005-10-10T14:53:29Z

Hmmph...i got a job, housekeeping at the commodore. I'm in such a bad mood coz its raining and even though i have something to do tommorrow other than kick about in bed most the day, i am disapointed because the commodore is undoubtedly where all the kids who end up staying in Helensburgh start off. Fuck that, i applied at the Hilton and a couple of other places, and a photographers studio, haven't heard back yet though, they are all in Glasgow, i would quite happily work there. i'd feel as if i am getting away from the pond that is Helensbugger. I looked online for jobs in other countries for January, quite difficult because of all the different requirements, like angencies u have to pay and shit, i reckon i might just wait till i have money and just fucking live somewhere else. i saw a job for a lapdancer, i could so get that job, no experience nessisary...but there is the whole moral thing...

I'm 18 awfully soon, which means i have to get more money for working. yar.
Also means i'll be reeeeally fucking drunk all over Scotland for the whole weekend.

I feel better now, the commodore should be a laugh - nine in the morning won't be as funny though.
i'm going to make food.
x

avert young children.

2005-10-03T17:33:51Z

It wasn't rape...it was just uninvited penitration...

The above statement is not one that i made about my own personal experience. Anyway, on friday i went to a warehouse party thingy with Sam. A warehouse that could have fit probably over 1000 people in it, filled slowly up to about 200 including dogs and young children. It was on all night and i actually ended up having quite a fun night after making sure i wasn't going to be stuck sleeping in a random freezing warehouse, in fact i didn't sleep at all. I made friends with a band called Kobai, through questioning them on whether i could play on their drumkit, it wasn't theres but i stuck with them all night, something crazy happened which lead to them not playing and leaving to go to a private studio down the road and staying there most the night. I tagged along. actually had quite a good time. Left at about 6.30 to get the first train to Helensburgh.

Saturday and sunday were taken up by a motorbike roadtrip around large parts central scotland. LOVED IT!!
now it is Monday. Ghastly.
I'm going to eat now.

x

le_bench @ 2005-09-19T17:00:00

2005-09-19T16:10:27Z

I wanna be forgotton and i dont wanna be reminded, i said please dont make this harder. i dont wanna change your mind i dont wanna waste your time, i just wanna know ur alright. you're alone, you don't miss me, i know. I'll come together in the middle of the night but it's an ending i can't write because i've got you to let me down. I fucking love the strokes. That would be a mixture of two of my favourite songs becausre the song changed.

You know who else i love...too many DJ's, and i may be going to see them in Edinburgh soon for freeeeeeeeeeee. I've been feeling a little lost, alone and really run down the past coouple of weeks. My mind frame has changed quite a bit over the past year and i don't really feel like i'm at home anymore. It's pretty strange. Meh, it's alright though. It happens...apparenlty. I tidied my room though...

Sent off my application for the Hilton, so i think things will change again soon...If not, fuck it, i'm going to Rome.

x

Do you wanna get back? i wanna get back?...lets get back.

Orange human, human orange? Did i dream that?

2005-09-10T19:10:59Z

Brian the American is here! Woo!
So it's a Helensburgh pub night tonight. Also Finches last night in Helensburgh, emotion all round, for some reason thinking of Finch leaving reminds me of a coconut...and Emma Khodya (sp?) Anyway, recently i have been doing fuck all. all day. "Getting into some hard-core Richard and judy" what with the unemployment and stuff. But tuesday is jobfair day so Pete and i are going to explore that option and by Wednesday i shall be employed...it's the goal, anyway.

Last little personal note: JD, you're an arsehole. I put all my effort into not kicking your ass. That's about to stop. You Arsehole : )

Also: Gav!! are you in Glasgow yet? I intend on contacting you in the next 24 hours.

P.S. Sorry to all those who have Myspace and just read the same update as i just copy and pasted it due to laziness :)

x

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2005-08-31T20:42:42Z

my god. im so bored. Someone give me a job, immidiatly.
Actually, workforce gave my CV to a hair salon, and u get a qualification after like two months, so i could get a jop on a cruise ship as a hairdresser instead. Quite random though considering i never really considered it before.
Bryan the American is coming on...uh this week sometime. Kevin went back to America and Dan is going to Denmark to be with some danish girl.

America fuck yeah.

2005-08-27T17:02:23Z

I will have sex with you tonight if you promise you will never die...

...i promise i will never die.

le_bench @ 2005-08-22T21:16:00

2005-08-22T20:24:06Z

im home now.

i've had a few showers, and i ate all the food i missed while i was away and iv had lots of beautiful hours in my own bed and im about ready to go back. Helensburgh's just not cutting it anymore.

but seriously, europe was amazing, a big slap in the face as to what my priorities are and to stop taking things so seriously. just live.

on my travels i met a number of amazing people. three of which there was...flingage. the first, his name is joseph turner (like the artist) and i met him in bratislava, he was lovely. we stayed in touch. The third was a man named doug, 22 from kentucky and he was sstttuuunnnnninggggg. I met him in rome and we had a romantic, sexy time together for about 5 days. the third was an incredibly ''movie-esc'' romance on the beach of barcelona, where i took the virginity of a french boy called joel (pronounced joelle)

we went to amsterdamn, berlin, prague, brno, bratislava, vienna, rome, chinqutara, la spazia, montrpellier, port bou, nice, montrepolli, paris and brussells. we got stuck in random parts of italy because of bombscares. i slept in three different train stations and four different trains. it was all so beautiful. im guna make this my career. fuck uni, it can wait.

actually i might be working on a cruise liner for 6 months after october...we shall see.

i went to igloo rave 05...it was really cold.
x

everyday i love u less and less...JD

2005-08-02T10:25:58Z

i went to a brothel in prague the other night and paid 85 crowns (just over 2 euros) to watch a fat local czechislovakian man undress himself after what smelled like a hard day at work.
the priceless moment was when he peeled off his beige socks and unleashed a mighty smell.

i got mugged in berlin of 300 euros. that was a bit gutting but im alright.
oh yeah we made friends with these awesome guys from san diago california, and they are coming to scotland with us. yay.

we're going to bratislava for a bit today then head to vienna for a while.

berlin berlin berlin

2005-07-26T12:00:34Z

ho ho i'm in Berlin!
I'm staying in this rancdom cheap little hostel that hapens to be excellent, theres a terrace bar and loads of free stuff and we've made so many friends, we made friends with some brazillians called Tiägo and Marcello, and some Americans, Dan Bryan and Kevin. They are so amazingly funny. Kevin looks like Jeff Buckley and is in this really good band. Bryan looks like keanu reeves and is this really amaying photographist, and Dan looks like cameron diaz but is the funniest man i have ever met in life.

Bryan is coming to prague with me and jenny. quite excited. we leave for prague on the night train tommorrow. we came to berlin on the night train from Amsterdam about three days ago. it was awful there was this huge snoring german beast next to me so i slept on the floor.

anyway we're off to the east side gallery so im guna go, later tonight we're going clubbing in eastern germany. Fuck yeah.

just live, man...just live.

The real Mcoist.

2005-07-16T12:57:24Z

I leave in 4 days for Europe for what is planned to be a month. I may stay longer. I've tried getting in touch with a few people i want to see before i go but i can't get in touch with half of them. I'm leaving at 6 in the morning on Wednesday.

I'm not in a good mood at all today. I feel like i haven't been in a good mood for about a week and today i just can't be bothered forcing enthusiasm. I've nothing to do today. I don't have a job anymore :(

OOh yeah! i worked at the scottish open golf tournament in Loch Lomond. I got like £250 for five days. Not too bad. I also met a nice young man named Ally. And i met a guy called Ally McCoist, apparently quite high in football circles, had a wee chat with him and my work friend Ally came over all starstuck at this guy and i was like "ooh is that the guy that made the crisps?"....No Claire, that's the real McCoy. Also saw Colin Montgomery in a car and asked him for an ID pass, as i was on traffic control that day. He seemed a bit insulted, he's apparently quite high in golf circles. It was quite a fun week. Would have been nice to have seen Ally again but pointless because i'm going away.

Anyway, i'll hopefully see some of you in the next four days. If not then i probably havent seen you for a while anyway.

Goodbye.
x

READ THIS PLEASE

2005-06-28T01:45:17Z

I forgot to mention my dream! it's so cool because its like a three part thing... So i lived in this huge mansion with Simon Peg (guy from 'Spaced') in this town that kept getting invaded by huge Emporor penguins. The first time it happened everyone just thought it was kinda weird but it was alright we were an open minded town and didnt mind sharing stuff with huge penguins, so then the dream stopped and went onto something i can't remeber then came back again later in the night and by this time the penguins had slyly started hurting and munching people. I never actually saw any of the gore or anything it was just a known thing that the penguins were nibbling on the townfolk, so someone came up with the idea to scare them away with really loud music, so somehow we mangaed to get huge speakers and started playing Abba in this little town square totem thingy, and the penguins ran away, then the dream went onto something else and came back later in the night/morning and had come back with no perticular plan of action, so me and simon decided to go into town to perchase some huge speakers incase they ruined our mansion, but of course they had all been used up in the big penguin scare in dream two, so we headed back discussing our plan quite loudly and got a little fellowship of twonsfolk following us to saftey because the penguins were a bit pissed off. So simon and i ran ahead and started making excuses to the townspeople like ''the house is in a bit of a mess at the moment, so maybe you could hide from the man eating penguins another time'' or ''we havent got any good biscuits in at the moment so maybe tommorrow'' but then a couple of penguins turned up and smashed our window, then suddenly simon and i were in bed and the penguins were still outside the front door just kind of...penguining about but the townspeople had lessened and there was one or two just hiding in the bushes...then i kept waking up (in real life) and trying to get the dream back so it got all confusing and didnt make sence. :)

You look quite delicious in that tone of voice

2005-06-18T17:36:28Z

Hello, i haven't been on the computer at all recently and it took me about 20 minutes to look through the last week of updates from a considerabble amount of aquaintances. Anyway, because it's raining i've decided to take this saturday to myself and do all the stuff i meant to do this week. I have a bit of time so i thought i'd update :) yesterday i took my camera with me everywhere i went and decided to do 'a day in the life of...' kind of thing. So here it is...please take a look...

Breakfast may be the best part of the day, It's a claire moment. Unless Jenny rings the doorbell too early to get her stuff or just to generally wake me up. Anyway yeah, cup of tea and toast and peanut butter. Respect.

I went shopping with Becka to buy Nicks birthday present, i bought him two things called 'water noodles' and a sling shot for water bombs. We had much noodle fun before we gave them to him, we also made those little dennis the menace chocolate muffins, which were greatly appriciated later in the night when we were joined by four or five stoned young men :)

I also bought my friend Peter a cake and card for his 25th birthday which is today. I bought him some novelty underwear which he is modestly modelling in front of his living room window

This is his T-shirt, which has an appropiate badge of micheal jackson attached to it. I like MJ but i chuckled at that.

Then i went to work...

About to clean the hogwarts style Lomond library...

Done. Fantatsic.

Good friend of mine from work - Henry (said in French accent) who finally properly broke at work that day - it was quite a climactic moment.

Lomond 6th year last year. My ex-boyfriend jamie, who i mentioned a number of times before is the small black dot in the right corner of the light blue triangle. The picture makes me smile. hehe.

Then i went to a pointless hour of rehersals for a show that i'm in, i took Nicks noodles, there was noodle abuse.

Then to nicks for some cake and champagne and some swift water balloon action

Then swiflty to the pub
The clyde first, i love this dog, i tries to steal the pool balls

then the garth till closing

Tom and James were doing their 'angry faces'

We then went to nicks and i was a bit too drunk to use my camera, but dunacan, Jamie, Eddie and Sweeny came to eat cakes and join us, then after some trampoline fun i went to my friend Jasons to watch misery while he fell asleep with his cat. I walked home at 5.30 and didn't wake up till 1.30
Have no idea what i'm doing tonight but i have a month and two days left till i go to Europe. Try and book some time with me, i want to see you before i go. Wanna go to West Kilbride again before i go aswell. Might head to London next weekend for a night or two, but thats all other plans really. Ooh except i'm going to try and convince jenny to come bingoing with me to get cash for europe. And put on car boot sales and stuff. It gets me quite excited, i'm quite a geek. Going to finches tommorrow as far as i know.

Golden.
x

Floating in the dark

2005-06-01T00:01:39Z

Right. Sorry i haven't updated in a while.

I'm updating tonight for Mark Fry.
What an absolute ace of spades.

Well ok, so last night was a bit trippy, i went to the pub quiz in the garth, came third last out of like 7 groups. It was amazing fun but i thought it would just be something casual - ended up going back to nicks summer house with Finch Becka Kai Linda and AJ and hotboxed his summer house. Crawled into bed at about four of the A.M. to be woken by the phone at roughly eleven. wasnt appriciated at all.
Tonight i went for a drink with Manda rachel mark sam and paul then back to tristans, only came out to see manda and hardly spoke to her at all. Had the best wee chat with Mark though. He knows just what to say. Also was really good to properly hang out with sam aswell.

Oh yeah and im sorry i never came to the last rehersal tonight, i had work and thought we had the night off rehersals. I'm good for saturday though.

Party tomoro at Kai's
Thursday must try to get sleep.
Leavers day/ball friday
Violent delights saturday

Thats the line up.
Post me a wee message, i'd quite like that.

quiche
x

It's true the two of us are back as one again.

2005-05-22T19:07:51Z

So the idea was that because all my freinds smoke, whenever they spark up or whatever i could whip out a bottle of bubbles and blow bubbles. All was going well, it was a healthy habbit, however a bit sticky when i found they had exploded in my bag, KILLING my phone completely. Hmm who saw that coming?...Twat.
So i have been using my brothers old flip phone thingy, which i love flipping but don't really know how to use, and the picture screen is a pireced breast and i dont know how to change it.

Other than that though, i watched the game in the pub today with Jenny, Eddie, Liam and Jamie D. The whole game! Motherwell won 2-1 against Celtic. Everyone was very sad except Jamiel.

x

news sperting in no order:

2005-05-17T22:29:29Z

Peter got a dog!!
Yass. He took it from some neglectant family and it is currently living across the road at Peterucios house. It's name is Doobie and it is black and cute.
I have a 17 year old friend that got a job behind a bar.
I no longer go to school.
Tommorow is my last exam.
I go to europe soon.
People are coming home from uni around about this week.
My CD player broke.
And much much more.

Unforatunaly alot of the events that happen to me aren't suitable for those under the age of 18 and so should be refrained for the minority that are and that have access to reading these events incase they are damaged or disturbed in some way.

Thank you.
x

READ ME

2005-05-09T22:23:59Z

HELLO!
I haven't looked at livejournal for ages, i'd like to say it's because i've been really busy with other things but that might be untruthful because i truthfully can't remember, i just seem to be floating along these days.
I failed my first ever driving test today, i didn't expect to pass at all. I drove over a curb, went into the wrong lane at the round-a-bout and indicated when i was going straight. What an idiot. I knew all the stuff but i was a bit scared. Oh well, next time.
I have three days of actual school left ever in life! How good!? i have two exams and then i'm going to start working before i go to europe...Lomond just isn't doing it for me anymore, i may quit. Specially considering the summer is coming up.

Another thing, before i go to yuropa i have a mental list of people i want to spend one on one time with (or in a group if more apprporiate) and i think its about 15 people individually. It's generally all the people i've met over the last two or three years that i'm unlikely to see again or as often, just to spend a day with them or hang out with them kinda one on oneish. I must have forgotton some people so if you'd like to be on my list please let me know, i'd most likely love you to be. Even if i hardly know you.

happy monday.
x

I'll sell my tiny muffin for a girlfriend...

2005-04-12T21:45:02Z

Looking for a girl to listen to me and mother me and suggest chocolate. Not a girl for romance, i have far too much romance on my plate it's making me cry. I hate the holidays without Jamie. It sucks. There's never anything to do after the pubs close, i always want to go out. I can't yet legally drive. I have found myself lonely too often over the holidays and why? because i screwed up my chance with the the only person who would cheer me up right now (romantic feelings or not). Other than this last tiny muffin i have come to own - but - theres no garentee this will keep me happy for long. So i have to turn to my girlfriends. Who aren't there anymore. So it's come to this. I'm selling my tiny muffin (or anything else i have to offer) to buy a girlfriend. *Finalising nod*

Said.
x

le_bench @ 2005-04-10T18:35:00

2005-04-10T16:42:24Z

Felt so ill today. Biggest stomache pain ever. Was thinking:
Maybe its food poisoning, i'm never careful enough...
Maybe its woman problems, take a paracetamol...no change.
Maybe alcahol poisoning and i'm just withholding the pain...
Maybe i got hit in the stomache last night and forgot...
Maybe its a really weird stomache hangover...
Then i thought...wait when was the last time i ate?...4pm the day before....Hunger. Aaah. So it starts to hurt after 26 hours. Fair enough.

I slammed my finger in a car door on Friday while i was wasted. It fucking hurt. i fell asleep with a tea towel full of ice on me. I was supposed to go on an Asda expedition last night aswell after the pubs shut. But alas. He failed me. Perhaps tonight.

Catchy.
x

L o u d and CLEAR

2005-04-07T22:56:34Z

:( i need more adventures during the day, mid evening, late evening, night and around about this time too. From about one o'clock onwards i'm good for adventures because the Teak closes and i can just go see Lee but really i need a time consumer package...like another job. I have three weeks off because Lomond has three weeks off. I don't get paid holidays :( so my new objective is to get another job that dosent collide with school and current job. any suggestions or ideas or anything would be greatly appriciated.

If anyone is wondering what i have actually been doing with myself over the holidays so far its basically quite a dull read but i have been either at Jenny's (occasionally) or Petes (he feeds me, i love him and his haiku's) or occasionally in the Teak. There has also been the occasional party here and there. Me and Jenny are booking the tickets to Amsterdam tommorrow, we were sposed to do them last weekend but it has been put off till tommorrow, which makes me think that maybe i have been quite busy. But theres no proof.

Ooh yeah i had an interview for ECA on Tuesday, it went well, i met the great great granddaughter of president jefferson, she was quarter french, quarter american, quarter japanese and quarter indian. She was pretty cool. The interview actually took about four minutes but we were waiting around for like four hours. I hope it went well, i couldnt really tell. I was just kind of talking to them like they were my mates that i see everyday, it was really weird. I really hope i got in but the ratio is like 150 people getting in out of 900 applying. we'll see though.

I'll see alot of you tommorrow at the cocktail party thingy :) and if Matt reads this i will be at your birthday next Thursday :) If anyone reads this that goes to school with me could someone please tell me when we go back please? :) Thanks.

x